And if someday you read this and feel a moment’s warmth,
Let it be known: your smallest mercy overtook my empire of fire.
"Bitter Steam Silent Fire"
The sun sets as I prepare my brew,
recalling your beauty, the quiet charm from you.
Despite your sarcastic, almost careless replies,
I remember each word, though it almost bruised me through.
Dismissive comments linger, edges sharp and thin,
I wonder—did I err? Am I worth being dismissable to you?
The coffee grows bitter in my cup,
milk and sugar unable to soften the thoughts I rue.
I trace your shadow in the rising steam,
a ghost of laughter that once felt true.
Even silence seems to speak of your absence,
the weight of things unsaid, of a glance I never knew.
The aroma reminds me of mornings I never shared,
of warmth I imagined and the cold reality I brew.
I fold my longing into each sip,
letting it settle, quiet, as if I knew.
Perhaps the heart always misreads kindness,
or reads too much into gestures few construe.
Your memory drifts through the window light,
long afternoon shadows bending with my rue.
Time passes slowly in the café,
each minute folding into the next, unnoticed.
I watch the streets glow under a fading sun,
cars humming, distant voices threading the evening.
The sky deepens to violet,
as if painted with the brush of a lonely god.
I write, I sketch, I make poems unseen,
small offerings of a soul no one knew.
Even the simplest cup now tastes of reflection,
every sip a meditation on absence.
I think of your laughter,
not loud, not brash, but the kind that lingers quietly,
turning corners of memory into rooms of longing.
I wonder if you ever think of me,
or if all my careful attention dissolves
into the world as nothing at all.
The first stars appear, hesitant and pale,
and I imagine you standing among them,
a distant light I cannot touch.
The coffee grows cold, yet I do not mind,
its bitterness matching the quiet ache in my chest.
Each shadow across the table whispers your name,
though no one else could hear it,
no one else could know the weight of it.
Perhaps the world is always too bright for longing,
too full of motion to hold a silent pulse of fire.
I rise to stretch,
but the room seems smaller without you,
the chairs and tables bending inward,
pressing me toward memories I cannot release.
The evening deepens,
neon flickers faintly through the glass,
and I think of the ways you made small moments
feel like revelations I could never speak aloud.
I fold my hands over the empty cup,
letting the silence seep between my fingers,
and for the first time,
I accept that some warmth exists only in memory.
I will leave this place tonight,
the table smooth, the coffee gone,
but the quiet fire remains—
a pulse no one will touch,
a farewell never spoken,
a love I carry only in the hours
when longing is permitted to breathe.
"Ultraviolet Rose"
Pardon if I made you a poem,
Especially if your beauty resonates.
Especially when your charm is tempered
By the wit I have encountered,
A love of Mecha and the sword,
As if you try to confront the world alone.
A rose, red as that of blood,
With thorns, stingy as the world surrounds.
My thoughts play dark, industrial—
Machines whirring in endless loops,
As your movements end like ultraviolet,
Sharp, precise, almost mechanical.
Your background once chemical, pharmaceutical,
Designed in labs of logic and precision;
Now I see you in the cabin, aeronautical,
A pilot in the skies of my imagination.
I do not know why your beauty makes me ponder
These impossible alignments of thought;
Instead of seeing the yellow over blue,
M mind draws pitch black and red,
Dystopian sketches and neon shadows,
Like sci-fi pages from forgotten notes.
Yet in these colors, I trace your presence,
A pulse in dark machinery,
A melody hidden in mechanical hums,
A quiet fire behind ultraviolet eyes.
I write, I sketch, I fold you into verse,
A rose that cannot bloom except in thought,
A blade I wield against nothing,
A love that exists in margins and silence.
Every stanza, a breath in a sealed cabin,
Every line, a heartbeat against the world,
Every imagined movement, a secret signal
No one else can read, no one else can see.
And so I leave this poem behind,
A dark industrial melody,
A rose in ultraviolet,
A ghost in chemic skies,
A jisei for the beauty I carry alone.
"Of Colors That Linger Over Coffee”
Mango yellow,
the sun spills across the sky,
Bantayan blue drifts softly,
clouds floating as if reluctant to move.
Heaven, I pray, grant me a moment
to hold a cup of warmth,
iced coffee caramel-laced,
its bitterness tempered by sweetness.
These colors haunt my mind—
not scarlet red, nor pitch black,
nor river-sand grey that the evening brings.
Instead, your memory rises,
sweet yet sharp,
like a taste that lingers on the tongue.
The wind shakes the blossoms,
and I remember your smile,
a fleeting warmth in spring sunlight.
Even the coffee in my hand trembles
like a reflection of what was yours,
softly tempered by distance and time.
Pardon my wondering,
for thoughts are restless and untamed,
drifting like petals across the pond.
Your presence brought both joy and sorrow,
a fleeting fragrance I cannot keep,
like dew evaporating in the first morning light.
Sometimes I ask myself—
was it folly to encounter you,
to behold the beauty and charm
that lingers even now,
in mango-colored skies,
in iced caramel coffee,
in a breeze that shakes the trees?
Yet even if brief,
the taste, the sight, the sighs,
remain pressed upon my heart,
not bitter enough to turn away,
not sweet enough to ease the ache,
but enough to remind me
that impermanence itself
can hold a kind of love.
The petals fall,
coffee cools in the cup,
and I sit quietly,
watching the sun fade behind Bantayan blue,
knowing that some colors,
some memories,
linger as softly and stubbornly
as your absence in my heart.