Same Old New Year in this Today's Plastic World

Same Old New Year in this Today's Plastic World

(And how some people still yearning 

for a new yet meaning world this New Year)

At first, this person conveys greetings this start of 2015. And like any other year, 2015 means a new start for everyone: new dreams, new challenges, new gadgets, new shows, new claptraps being vented all from January to December in the name of pleasure and enjoyment.

Can't deny it since it's true, knowing that everyone has waited for this since past few months, looking at every update, preparing, saving time and effort in order to gain at its possible time, be it movies, gadgets, dance steps, anything that is trendy like any other year this person and others concerned has sought through.

And inconveniently speaking, most are for the sake of impression, in a way those who brought acoustic guitars eventually gave up the following year and lately brought ukeleles for the sake of trend than for the love of music. Come to think of this, ukeleles and acoustic guitars are all the same string instruments, and this person believe that there are those afforded to play, make music, express as they enjoy using those string instruments, but how about the others driven by the trend, especially after last year's buying of varsity jackets, are they really serious or like any other year of throwing it away for another? 

Sorry for being inconvenient especially those who afforded to say words such as "choice", that has becoming a code word for unbridled spending for a mere material benefit especially after being enticed to buy in order to get in. Same styles for clothing and apparel coming from different well-known brands, all for profit from those entities trying to "maintain prestige"; and in movies, seeing same genres coming from different priducers especially those trying to win a pseudo-national prize. That oftentimes marred by scandals, if not criticisms coming from the concerned. 

To sum it all, the plastic world has won according to the late Letov. 2015 is like any other year full of something new, but whatever everyone says, still these same everyone still sees and feels same old problems. The problem is this: people chose not to understand these, worse, trying to be intentionally ignorant as they escape from these inconvenient realities, be it poverty, corruption, injustice, people care less about these least they enjoy these new sorts of things in this plastic world Letov has been saidth in his song. This plastic world called modernity continues to rule over everyone's lives and mindsets. Substituting reality for an illusion, of having state of the art this and that, a thriving populace whose mantra is work, buy, consume throughout the year. And in this 2015, it will always be like any other year, same old plastic changes, new trends and words to vent with, while at the same time, new scandals meant to be forgotten, new protests likely to be assailed in the name of illusory peace, new bullshit to be expressed. 

And these bullshit, protest, is coming from those people who had really demand a breakthrough out of their still struggling yet genuine hopes in this present day plastic world: all for a real social change, for a genuine application of social justice, for a realisation of an aspiration, far from what the system and its outlets has vented throughout the year. 

They want something new in this year, yet more than what is being depicted, they want a year where both material and spiritual wealth united all to create a healthy living whole. For a better individual, for a better community. And if possible, they will do by any means to the point of having their lives be sacrificed.

That's all, and С ноьвим годом. A Struggling yet Enjoying new year to all.

Reaffirming a Quixotic ideal

Reaffirming a Quixotic Ideal

A message for Rizal Day

Well, ever since people celebrated his martyrdom at Bagumbayan in 1896, Jose Rizal has represented a race willing to assert dreams and aspirations of his own land and race.

These dreams and aspirations, mostly in a form of writeups and discoveries of his own work, has showed how the Filipino as capable of enjoying its own self-government, what more of its own independence, in order to enjoy its hard work, of uniting material and spiritual wealth to create a healthy well-being, both the individual as well as its own society.

However, Jose Rizal was and is, more than a person; like all others who proved how great the Philippines is, is one of those who represented the quixotic ideal of the Filipino people. Rizal loved the Filipino nation more than his life. Rizal loved the independence of the Philippines more than his own independence, and with His death on the altar of freedom at Bagumbayan comes the dream and hope and warm beating of his heart shared by such other heroes as Gregorio H. del Pilar, Malvar, Mabini, and others.

However, despite years passed, of gaining independence, of facing tyrants, and enduring decades old hardships, Rizal's ideal remains quixotic as long as those who afforded to babble his ideas, aspirations, even his example, are in fact same as the corrupt friars and opportunistic men of the cloth during his period.

And regardless of having known for his contributions, be it in the field of medicine, science, engineering, literature, his life's work remains unfinished, and its up to the Filipino people to take that arduous, decades-old task.

And that task is more than what the system has stubbornly insisted. Not also wonder that out of patriotism and social awareness, there are those willing to set fires against an existing yet dilapidated social order. True that the country needs a long term process of reform, renewal, revolution. Rizal's dream to realise an aspiration comes a reaffirmation and assertion of a nation longing to stand up on its own feet, willing to confront the enemies and slanderers of one's homeland. 

Anyways, there may be people who treats Rizal as a person worthy of veneration; however, not all appreciates his word, such as having a nation that shelters the despot or the slave.

That's all.

"Feels Trip at West Ave."

"Feels Trip at West Ave."

Background:

This poem was made on the same day during the event this person has participated with in a bar. Whilst drinking beer and listening to other's poems, rants, and summarising their featured works, he was making this work.

More friends more strangers

Gather at Black Kings late than never

Seeing some acquaintances yet going to eat first

Miso ramen so expensive but can't withstand hunger or thirst

Hearing statements, poems and feelings

Seeing pictures of people, nudes, young masses

Then a friend did not give me gift as promised weeks ago

Nevermind for the event's enough a gift, so why should not I go?

At the counter had to buy a bottle of beer

Pale pilsen, old school, like dad and his peers

While listening to their words drinking, here making a writeup to finish

Of Würtzbach and Maykel, Yankees and the once Vanquished

Then after long came I stood at the stage

Showing drawings, some hurting feelings, realtalk to fill the page

Poetries full of pasts likely to call mistakes

If not last lantern parade, or even rainy day feels

And deep inside as if trying to be Limonov
Of Grazhdanskaya Oborona and the late Egor Letov
For the reality of having hell being described in the poems
And the promise of Heaven to those being sown

Then came along two old men

Legend as others say but trying to low profile as they can

Some young end smiling noticing who are they then

Such as one who after seeing pictures, discounts has offered to them

But as they left later, this person seems feeling alone

Yes there may be friends around Black King's but most busy along

The sound of Imago often makes past memories prolong

As everyone listens if not singing to their song

And as I go home after I just find nevermind

The important is to meet them, and say the poems enough to understand

But in the end they only hear is my realtalk, some left and quite sorry if it feels rage

Obviously it is not even enough to fill the page

Making Nativity "Native-ity"

Making Nativity "Native-ity"

Inspired by western depictions of that Middle Eastern event, Filipino artists seemed inspired, and compelled to create depictions that reflects Christian faith in a Filipino setting such as those of a romanticised peasantry.

Likely being made in the mid-20th century, these artworks featured Filipino peasant attire, be it the straw hat or the Salakot, the Camisa de Chino and Peasant Trousers for men, as well as Kamison for women along with the veil reflecting the peasant wife's image as those of the Virgin Mary.

Besides those of the Carabao, Goats, Chickens, took place of the Sheep and Horses. Bethlehem became a barrio, and the Manger be situated at the tenant's stables where animals gathered to see the blessed couple taking care of the young Christ.

To add further cultural flavour of the isles, the so-called "Three Wise Men" or "Three Kings" seemed represented by those who represent the three major island groups of the Philippines: An Ifugao chieftain representing Luzon, a Visayan Cabeza representing Visayas, and a Moro Vizier representing Mindanao. These three prominent beings expressed reverence to the newborn King as they offered Gold, Frankincense, and Myrrh, that symbolises Christ as King, God, and Man. 

Quite nice to see the Nativity, or rather say "Native-ity" as it features biblical characters as "idealised" typical Filipinos. From the peasant-like setting to those of the "Three Kings" as Cordilleran chieftains or Moro viziers, the artists wanted to show that in a Christian country like the Philippines, they also want to show to the world that not all paintings depicting the Nativity has to be "western-centric" such as those from the Louvre or the National Museum of Art. 

Furthermore, the Nativity in the Filipino setting also showed the Filipino's yearness for Unity and Peace; but for this person's take, and maybe through the eyes of these artists involved in those artworks, that Unity and Peace is being rooted from Justice, as represented by the newborn Christ. 

"Peace, Land, Bread, Justice"

"Peace, Land, Bread, Justice"

A Christmas Message

"Peace, Land, Bread, Justice." These are the basic words most poor people would ought to say this yuletide season. 

Commonly heard during protests as well as from various statements this person hath read, it seems that these calls aren't been given seriously, amidst press releases and "actions" likely to be called pretentions if not realisations in this present order enough to call "repressive" and "unjust".

And although most readers may find it haggard, especially with such serious words related to activism and even social revolution, this statement is posted at a right time, for this season is not meant just to celebrate, but to act for the love of God, family, country, fellowmen. And it is more than just what is commonly depicted on TV, Movie, Internet, or heard in the Radio. 

For according to Delmar Taclibon, he noticed the reality that is contrary to what is ideally seen especially in this season. True that everyone missed their love ones yet sometimes forgetting them as most confined to their wealth, comfort, what more of power and greed. 

Worse, having the reality of trampling rights of its own fellowmen, ignoring their rights against the actually existing terrorisms of poverty, social injstice, exploitation, abuse, callouseness, of having a system tainted by arrogant governance, mismanagement, crime, corruption, and others that further sink everyone including this person, and this country he belongs as well, down to the abyss of nowhere.

Come to think of this: what if God is a caroler who wears shabby clothes, will you give food, gifts, or just leave unnoticed? What if God is amongst the farmer, the worker, the student who clamour for peace, land, bread and justice, will you heed the call or nevermind about it claiming it has nothing to do with one's fantasy? The reality of having Christmas equating to those of consumerism with pretentions of being virtuous whilst not seriously heeding their statements and even putting shame those who call for what is just has really forgotten the words Christ has taught to its desciples such as serving the people, of sharing wealth equally, of bring justice to those who really desired. 

Or rather say, no wonder why one calls this event a "Merry Crisis and a Happy new Fear."

Anyways, in this so-called season of forgiveness, sharing, giving, these attributes related to Christmas should be more than what is commonly depicted in movies and TV commercials. Charity should become solidarity, and love has to be boundless, selfless as everyone really desire for words such as those attributed to this season, if not the virtue that makes Christians Christ-like. 

And hope that their simple call such as Peace, Land, Bread, and Justice be realised. 

Merry Christmas to all.

How a statement from a "Beauty Queen" comes a series of different Interpretations and criticism

How a statement from a "Beauty Queen"

comes a series of different Interpretations and criticism

(or how Pia Alonzo Würtzbach's statement
easily identified with reaffirming Yankee relations in the Philippines)

Source: Philippine Collegian

At first, this person congratulate ms. Pia Alonzo Würtzbach for winning the 2015 Miss Universe Beauty Pageant at Las Vegas, Nevada, USA. Her victory is a fine moment for the Filipino people who ceaselessly supported her bid for the crown.

However, despite her victory, it seems that her position, coming from her answer (as stated in the picture above), regarding the presence of United States Armed Forces in the Philippines is reflective of the sentiments of those who are unaware, intentionally or not, of the countless abuses and violence done by these forces, as well as its domestic counterpart, especially against Filipino women, children, communities, and even the environmenr on the pretense of security and stability.

To most people, her statement be justified on the pretext of the growing tremor with China. Along with a series of cold war-era rherotic and showbiz patriotism, it seems that the people who dare to criticise Würtzbach's statement leads to red tagging, harassment, rather than discourse to resolve different opinions regarding her statement.

Otherwise, those who create "counterstatements" on those who criticise Würtzbach's statement subjectively thinking that the pageant has nothing to do with foreign policy nor even politics, disregarding the fact that there are certain questions that are politically tainted in nature. After all, it is a beauty contest, and it has nothing to do with topics controversial in nature, if not Würtzbach speaks on her own statement according to them.

But for this person's take, her statement is also open to interpretations different from the officially accepted one of "totally reaffirming subservience of the Filipino to the Anglo-Saxon". For according to professor Maykel Andrada of the University of the Philippines, it is History that provide Pia Wurtzbach's answers in regards to US-Philippine relations. And it is full of irony, if not subversive or even parodical.

According to Andrada, he stated that After Würtzbach stated that the Philippines "have always had friendly relations", she stated that the United States had occupied the country and remained its colony from 1898 to 1946; and that is through McKinley's "Benevolent Assimilation" that is commonly studied in mainstream Philippine history, Würtzbach may have studied history quite well that the so-called friend was once a coloniser.

Secondly, Colonial Mentality has been revealed in her statement, given that American culture has also been Philippines's own for generations. Being described then and now as Brown Americans, having White supremacy as basis for beauty, having English as superior language for the learned, as well as Hollywood and its "Star System" for movies past and present. That somehow made the Philippine popular culture technically an annex of American culture, while those of its neighbours remained clinging to its own rooted yet modernised culture such as those of Indonesia and Malaysia (that was also colonised by the British and Dutch).

And lastly, the Philippines is a Neocolony, or even a Semicolony, through her statement that Americans are always welcome in the Philippines. It seemed quite general in referring to these "Americans", whether it is a "Tourist" looking for fine beaches, "Investor" seeking future markets, and even a "Soldier" known treating the Philippines as a "Rest and "Recreation" site. 

True indeed that Filipinos are "Friendly" towards to the American people due to long colonial and neocolonial relations between two countries. But with these Americans describing themselves as "Powerful", "Rich", "Progressive" in front of its vassals and being internalised as such, these words are enough to make the Philippines dependent in their aid rather than rolling its own sleeve and stand on its own to assert its independence. 

"Justice and Humanity" as its "basis" for occupying the Philippines

And yet, contrary to what most people thinks of as "affirmative", Würtzbach did not answer if she is in favor of US military presence in the country. Maybe she's intelligent enough to evade an answer in front of the American audience, particularly the sponsors who had made the Pageant well-known. For on the first place, who owns that beauty pageant such as "Miss Universe"? And obviously, that question is more of a "begging one" that can be answered simply by a "Yes" or "No."

But anyways, Würtzbach statement is open for interpretations, be it talking about the Americans whom afforded to solidarise the struggling Filipino people, supported its ideals and aspirations at the expense of being censored or imprisoned, or the Camouflaged men who once babbled "benevolent assimilation", "freedom", and "democracy". But the problem is that most people chose not to think deeply about her statement and instead merely nod as if enough for a good answer.

And if one afforded to criticise or reinterpret the statement other than the "official" one, they start to cry with a series of red tags and other whining rants, worse, attacking activists and other patriots out of "showbiz patriotism".

At first, it may sound offending about her statement, and once this person even think that "Antonio Luna should brought life to tell that the Philippines is a virgin yearning for a whore's love"; but since other activists (like Jose Maria Sison) has afforded to reinterpret Würtzbach's statement such as focusing on amicable relationships between American and Filipino people than those of governments (including the armed forces), this person would say that her statement is likely to open for interpretations. Remember: Mark Twain of Tom Sawyer was against American colonisation, that Jane Fonda visited the Philippines and met activists, that David Fagen defected and joined the Philippine revolutionaries, yet these people are Americans. 

After all, in a nation easily colonised by modern gadgets and promises of democracy and freedom, the Philippines has easily forgotten its heritage, its patriotism, save those meant for tourism. Pia Würtzbach may be right in her statement, but on the other hand, given that no one afforded to think critically and instead nod about Uncle Sam's right to interfere in someone else's business as its former colony, she showed that hers is a country of overdressed monkeys, an American experiment that created a generation of helpless "brown Americans" crying for the big white man.

People may have watched Heneral Luna and other movies featuring heroes just few months ago, memorising every phrase and even making fan art out of it; but then it easily forgets it altogether thinking that all is but history and meant to be forgotten. Yes, meant to be knowing that it has nothing to do with the current state of themselves as individuals, what more of a society that is less interested in statecraft and more of consumerism. Is this what independence and freedom the Philippines had after 1946? In 1946 there's still a generation of struggling patriots trying to assert that the revolution remains unfinished, while this coming 2016 what you see is a generation of whining kids becoming assholes thinking that to forget is divine.

You may call those who adhere in the ideals of the pasts with red tagging or any other bullshit, but in the end, it makes the name caller more of a marionette of a dying "republic".

Again, cheers to Würtzbach, but there are those who desired victory, a victory for Filipino Nationalism, a victory for the Filipino people and its realisation of an aspiration from an unfinished revolution.

"Lantern Parade 2015"

"Lantern Parade 2015"

No pictures at all,

Feels trip to the core

Despite seeing friends

Still alone and no more

Waiting for text messages

Running looking for loading stations

Yet still most can't reply

If not telling tomorrow or next time

Sitting alone at the cab

Listening Boutros while looking at others

Trying myself to stave off the feels

Creeping in my mind

Then the rector is gone

His feet gone bad from walking

He went to a corner

Till not seen till he messaged later

Sudden rain and cold coffee

And going home via taxi

Only to be reprimanded at home through a threat

That for next week "or else you can't get home to rest"

When "Star Wars" Fan Art is done "Religiously"

When "Star Wars" Fan Art is done "Religiously"

At first, this person would say that these fan art has gone "religious" with artists making religious icons out of Star Wars characters. 

Made by artists like Alex Ramos or Chawakarn Khongprasert, these "Byzantine" or "Mediaeval"-like icons are a playful parody of what fans adored with, or as what Ramos described as "worship" with all the pseudo-religious titles include such as "Patron Saint of influencing the weak-minded" for Ben Kenobi.

Here are the works done by Alex Ramos, coming from his website. 

On the other hand, the work of Chawakarn Khongprasert seemed to be influenced by Mediaeval iconography, like Ramos, quite a fitting tribute to the movie.

Anyways, these artworks reflect how a fan seriously loved watching the movie or perhaps almost worshipped the characters particularly "the good guys" like Ben Kenobi or Luke Skywalker. Besides thatm the art itself shows a revisit, although some would cry heresy over these artworks given its "sacredness" as any other sacred artwork done in the past or made by those whose idea of these artworks are limited to religious figures. 

After Nonoy's wrath: A possible political circus through "relief goods", While the Samareño is still calling for help

After Nonoy's wrath:

A possible political circus through "relief goods",

While the Samareño is still calling for help

People scavenge for something useful amidst the rain
Source: ABS-CBN News

For sure one would expect that after the tragic events lies a political circus supported by interests yearning to take over anything especially in the affected areas of Northern Samar.

Like Yolanda that had swept Tacloban and other parts of Eastern Visayas past years ago, Nonoy, or its revised name, Nona, has swept some villages like Laoang, Catarman, Allen, as well as others even those of Catubig and Las Navas. Rain, Flood and strong wind turned wooden houses to shattered sticks, if not concrete houses mudslided, enough to make ruin in this season supposed to be preparing for Christmas.

However, this writer as well as others knows that there's a politically laced expectation going on especially in those affected villages and towns. The system, like last year has "made efforts" in helping, but does not appease the hearts of everyone knowing that they are trying to curry for votes especially this next year's elections. And worse, The people and their communities are not just devastated from the storm but from the received spoiled goods from the Social Welfare Department. The rice that was distributed by DSWD has a foul smell and the noodle packs were already expired.

Again, no wonder why people expressed disgust in the system's mockery of relief through spoiled goods if not failure for immediate support for the people, including concerned local officials that perhaps happened to be from the opposition. That somehow one would make them say that they are freaking mad with all these incompetence of certain officials like Dinky Soliman, and why President Aquino still keeps her on his sleeves despite its inaction and mockery of relief through spoiled goods; or even why the system remains reluctant in efforts to make Eastern Visayas recover its environment after years of being exploited by logging interests and hordes of pseudo-development. Remember: some mountains are having kess trees due to deforestation, enough for a cause of floods during the rainy season. Lack of mangroves created less protection from sudden waves of the sea what more of a storm surge in case of Yolanda years ago. Again, the system showed its incompetence, reluctance, or even stupidity in resolving the existing problem to lessen the crisis, if not using the crisis itself as a means for mudslinging if not half-baked promises this coming elections.

But on the other hand, this person knows that through communal unity, the people themselves can able to recover their lost homes and renew their lives. Given the situation would say that they are making much effort to clean and bring back their communities as possible, of providing food what comes from theirs knowing that the system may likely to fail in providing what is immediate. Groups like "People Surge" and other mass organisations has making fund drives and relief efforts to support these affected communities ravaged by the storm, both by yesteryear's Yolanda and today's Nonoy. After all, Reality knows that typhoons pass through the Philippines and not just earthquakes and volcanic eruptions making the country part of the "Ring of Fire".

And perhaps, it is a duty for everyone, unaffected or not, to prepare and help to recover from this catastrophe. Well, on the first place, this person loves some of his friends, not just his relatives who happened to be there, and of course, lies the concern about them. Not just because they are there but the yearness of being with them in this Yuletide season. 

"The Girl From Smyrna"

"The Girl From Smyrna"

"Inspired by the song 'Izmir'in Dagarlinda'"

The girl from Smyrna is quite pretty nice

She is made of sugar and of fiery spice

Skin kissed by the heat of the morning sunrise

Embraced by the breeze of the sea where she lies

The girl from Smyrna is quite pretty nice

But she prefers to be with the so-called wise

Books over the fan, against the norm and flow

Reason over beauty as the few hath known

Love tempered with courage as the struggle lies

With her bayonet thrust her foes till it dies

Her songs heal the wounded so is her smile

Loving eyes from hers inspires all to the mile

The girl from Smyrna is quite pretty nice

Yet she firebomb the system once, twice, thrice

Shameless for her love is for all than alone

Till death is her oath, till the rising of the dawn

Every way, street, square lies the barricade

She and her men hath dutifully made

Hordes of the old order cannot pass on by

Yet for the long tired comes the way where it lie

The girl from Smyrna and her deviant kin

That the order think of them bandits and mean

No! Said by the have not for their eyes have seen

The love that makes them resist as they've been

Every march comes riot, all have bombs in hand

The system felt shaking with their just demand

No matter the latter impose martial law

She and all will never bow down low

Love tempered with courage as the struggle lies

With her bayonet thrust her foes till it dies

Hordes of the old order cannot pass on by

Yet for the long tired comes the way where it lie

"More than a picture"

"More than a picture"

(or how Karen Testibia prefers to be called 'witty' than 'pretty')

"For your beauty remains Enchanted...
there's a new music in the wind..."

At first, this person would say that it's been long overdue to made this writeup although he made some few poems for that person whom he befriend with. That based on her pictures, she is appreciated by people for being a model if not an artist, but to her closest friends (including yours truly), she is a thinker and a willing chemist. 

For a friend, it would say that despite her numerous pictures and videos featuring her as a talent, Karen is plain and simply doing her job. She just love her craft so much as she tries to humanise the image of her given character, if not wanting to make every film she had participated "too good to be true."

And based from observations would say that her's is more than just "beauty" and "charm". True indeed given her numerous appearances be it from the ramp, as a host at a certain event, as a talent in mainstream "drama", and an actress in independent cinema. That her appearance is of Malay-Pacific, skin kissed by the sun, "exotic" to the eyes of a stereotypical guy seeking for a girlfriend; 

but again, she is more than that, she prefers to describe herself as "witty" and "courageous", and based from her experiences, this writer would say that she loves to look at the microorganisms through the microscope if not willing to fight like a man when it comes to brawls, listening to Metal, assembling the gun, understanding the reality and the willingness to seek change in the society. Isn't it that far from what men think of her as just plain simple "beautiful?"

"She loves Mixing Chemicals and how to weave cloth" 

Sorry for the words, but her life and work is more than just the pictures being shown. She may be as pretty as any other model like Cindy Crawford with all her elegance, but she prefers to speak and think like Ninotchka Rosca; she may be sexier like Ina Raymundo but wanting to become like Marie Curie, she may be charming like Bangs Garcia but she chose the courage of Gabriela Cariño Silang, men may have appreciated her for what she is shown, but will these same men also understood what really comes from her such as yearning for social change or even her love for mixing chemicals for a formula? Hope so. 

Well, like her, women tries to break from the conventions, what more of showing far from the usual descriptions, it takes two to tango or good hands to play the piano, and to use Florentino Cruz's essay, he said:

"Rizal spoke of womanhood, and the most telling document he bequeathed to the Filipino race is his 'A letter to the young women of Malolos', which in effect demands courage." 

To become a fighter like Gabriela Cariño Silang? 

Or to become a Chemist like Marie Curie?

And perhaps the courage of these young women is embedded in that person's persona, like a Spartan  girl of the past willing to face the odds as possible, that during her High School days she got good grades like those in section 5 regardless of actually being in the 14th section; that she passed the admission test of the premier state university regardless of her school's pessimism thinking that none will able to pass that test. That she joined the militant struggle with a feeling that with a system such as today's, with its tailored mass-mediocrity in the name of curbing possible dissent, specifically, replacing a persona such as politically aware woman with those of a nagging yet socio-politically apathetic bitch. And of course! It is disagreeable! 

Such circumstances demands courage, and this person sees the wit and courage than the typical beauty and charm.  Her roles shows the flexibility, but she temper it with a real, human character like any other thespian who tends to show more than emotion when it comes to drama. Again, she is just doing her job but she tempers it "with some value" to appear more than "just taking a role and nothing else."

Maybe time comes that with her friends, she would have fulfilled her wish to be a girl who loves the frontline, whose role preferring the scent of gunpowder than rose-scent perfume, if not the iron sword over the silk fan. 

And to paraphrase Jose Maria Sison's poem "the forest remains enchanted", this person would say that: 

"Her beauty remains enchanted, 

And there's a new music in the wind, 

With a new magic in her loving face 

Admired by her folks and friends,

And with a fighting spirit has imbued over

To lure and astonish the intruders..."

To this person, her's is more than a series of pictures or roles he had sought in the screen, enough to be loved.

Thus, no wonder why he made few poems for her.

Thank you. 

(pictures coming from Karen Testibia, Patricia Pelita, and Francis Camballa)

"Dear Karen,"

"Dear Karen,"

Dear Karen,

It's been weeks passed when I last met you

It was the day I brought you goodies, having dinner, and having music sessions 

venting my problems through

And listening to your suggestions, to your redinitions of existing songs

That makes me feel at ease, regardless of expecting problems along

Earlier, when you were sick at that time

I hath brought you goodies, answered some of our questions

Enough to create our dreams and aspirations

Fit for the picture if not for the sketchbooks 

And during those times perhaps it makes me quite happy to be with you despite loneliness

Quite saddening for that word "loneliness", but what's wrong in being single-blessedness?

Comrade, despite the enjoys of being alone we also yearn for love,

After all, we didn't live in this world without someone.

Thanks for the times that I met a friend whom happened to talk to for long in person

Yet your friend has more to do with you and less to deal with me 

Ironically, I like her before, we even talk through the phone, yet I think all is but hopeless

But because of you I feel enough having a renewed sense of happiness

But on the other hand you chose not to deal with love after what was happened to you

You broke up with someone from abroad, and even you turn down an offer from a suitor-friend,

But I know you still love most of your friends, and perhaps that includes me

What's wrong in getting friendzoned? At least there's communication between we

But I admit, I like you so much, and maybe it is more than a friend

Yet on the other hand I don't want to hurt you, nor even offend

It happened that you renew my interest in history and art all my life

Like waves once silent this time through a long rage day and night

And the fact that you inspire me making time well spent

At Krus Na Ligas, or at Maguinhawa, it's pleasure to have you for a loving friend 

"Christmas" for the "Sick" and "Tired" of the Present System

"Christmas" for the "Sick" and "Tired" 

of the Present System

"When I feed the hungry, they call me a saint. When I ask why people are hungry, they call me a Communist."

- Dom Helder Camara

Well, as expected, this season is truly a season of sharing, of giving, of rekindling love and various virtues if not those of gifts, mouthwatering dishes, and repetitive music. However, to the sick and tired of actually-existing repressive realities, Christmas is a season of yearning for a just peace, far from what commonly described by mainstream media outlets with its star-studded videos.

However, not all would say find such impressions as Christ-like. As Christmas has been commercialised and focused heavily on Santa Claus and other commercialised personalities including those of "Christian Virtues" and "Morals", this person sees the inconvenient fact that those who are "sick" and "tired" of the reality has demanding the impossible, such as the above statement. For as far as this person knows that the reality brought by today's order failed to produce justice not just peace, various policies supposed to amelioriate social problems failed to be enacted by so-called "representatives of the people" as protests for peace, land, and bread been overheard from the streets to social media. 

Quite offending to some but is there really a person who is capable to question the reality despite giving something to the less fortunate? This person may have quoted some verses equating Christ to the sun of justice as the children of god has yearned for a person able to understand their plight and bring justice as its goal. People, particularly those called "rich" and "famous" may able to provide gifts to the poor, making some vows of charity as they could, but amongst these people, are, sorry to say but likely to be described as "pretentious" as their actions are done all for the sake of impressing the way yuletide-themed videoes trying to invoke as such. But did they question reality? Maybe, or maybe not as they focused on pretentious impression trying to act saintly just to cover up their scandal. Certain artists, politicians, personalities enjoying fame and fortune has greatly done so to show how "charitable" they are, but for sure few able to question the reality yet prefering to keep on to themselves. 

And the poor? For sure amidst having canned goods for the yuletide feast they are tired of being given, and they want to demand something that they themselves can do so. Obviously they wanted jobs with a real living wage, an arable land to till, livelihoods to sustain themselves and their communities, but is the system, amidst promising and trying to enact their calls are truly given? The living wage as what workers said are called "libing" (a Filipino term referring to "Burial") for it does not sustain their income especially in a time prices increasing; lands coming from landlords and corrupt bureaucrats aren't being justly distributed to the needy farmers what more of being converted these arable lands into something far from agricultural; livelihoods may have been given by certain personalities particularly politicians, but did these livelihoods sustained needy individuals and communities in a policy where cheap imports crippled their hardships? Again, the poor may have enjoyed the canned goods, but these poor cannot stop from complaining about the reality and asserting the alternative. That even the learned has afforded to complain the inconvenient reality behind such virtuous actions as the quote from above clearly stated.

Again, sorry for the rant, but as giving and sharing has becoming a promotional feat than a virtue, its value may likely to deem nothing except promoting age-old patronage politics if not trying to appease the people with pseudo-promises and some piecemeal "solutions". For time and again, this person sees Christmas with all its fund drives and less immersions, more profits and less contributions, and for politicians, piecemeal reforms than real implementation of social justice; and for sure these vast mass of "sedated" masses, if awakened and agitated, will show the world about what "Yuletide Madness" look like, in a way the poster from Limonov's "NazBol" has featured such as Santa Claus showing gifts of guns to a willing.

And by the way, here's a song from the band Гражданская оборона, with its well-known song Моя оборона. Sorry for it is Russian.

"Karen's theme"

"Karen's theme"

The legends from the ancient past makes me think all's but true

Of castles, warriors, and dragons fearing till one became blue

But one tale that I heard before it all reminds of you

A beauty yet tempered with courage yes I know its true

You ain't like princess nor a lady but of knighted dame

You are not a storybook girl who is soft if not quite lame

You chose the path less wandered than what most likely called fame

Thinking the latter if too much will end up ye insane

You choose the iron and of bronze than silver and gold

You love to listen stories young men told by the dying old

You chose the fight to become brave and thus to be bold

Maybe its true to say that the tales were all true as what they told

The sound of battle accompanies the strings of harps

The yells and clashing of swords creating terrific sparks

Sea of blood and vultures crows create a scene called dark

Eating corpses of fallen friends, foes in that arable mark

And as you survive the battle you stood by at the field and weep

For friends and loved ones killed by swords, arrows of foes quite creep

Now they're at Valhalla, enjoyed after fetched by Valkyries in horses leap

That eventually end in stories like Tolkien wrote and its readers keep

You ain't a princess nor a lady but more of a dame

Preferring the iron sword than the folded fan, gold crown of lame

Liking the sound of battle screaming till the world gone insane

Valhalla's waiting for you Karen​, seeing the eternal flame.

For Karen Testibia,

2015